Letters.

Blah. The issues Brother 1 is having are currently pissing me off.


Dear Girl,
you're being stupid. I understand that people change and so do feelings, but you are handling this situation in a terrible way. My brother is one of the most considerate, smartest, sweetest, caring guys that I have ever met. You should consider yourself lucky just to be in his presence. And you are not. You are handling this situation terribly. You will never see this, I am just complaining here because I cannot do it out loud. Because of your childish actions, you have lost an amazing guy. You have lost your two fur children. You have lost the second half of your family. As I said, feelings change, I understand that. But doing some of the things you have done lately is not right. It's unjust and immature. Maybe this all makes sense in YOUR head, I don't know. But if you love someone, you spend every second you possibly can with that person. I loved someone, and I lost him. But my loss is different than this, because mine is permanent. Mine cannot and will not ever come back. Never again will I get to kiss him or hug him or feel his arms around me. I'm never going to see him smile or laugh or continue growing into a man. I'm never going to get another text message, e-mail or phone call from me. I'm never going to see him walk up my sidewalk. My someone is gone, and he's not coming back. So I sincerely hope you can make up your mind and figure out what you want, and I hope you do it soon. And no matter what the outcome, I hope you handle is better than you have been handling things, and I hope you leave my brother in as few pieces as you possibly can.

Dear Brother 1,
I admire you more than you will ever know. I often wonder why I'm not more like you. You're highly intelligent, extremely caring, and all around great. The few bad choices you have made compared to the tremendous ones that I have created are nothing. I manage to screw up on countless occasions, and you manage to stay straight. And whenever you do slip, you have always been good at fixing what you have done. This girl has not treated you as you deserve to be treated, and at this point in time I personally believe that you deserve much better. I think that the best thing you could do now is lift your head up and move on. If she comes back to this now, it is always going to be like this. You cannot guilt her into coming back, because neither one of your hearts will be in it. I really feel like you need someone that will treat you like gold. And believe me, you will recover from this. It's going to be a long, dark, lonely and sad path, but it IS a path which you are able to get down safely. I know what you are feeling, I truly do. I felt those emotions for months and months. And to be honest, I still feel them. I don't know when it will go away, that horrible shitty feeling. Mine still hasn't gone away, but it has gotten slightly easier. You guys keep me smiling every single day, and that helps more than you know. CEF has also played a giant part in that as well, helping to recover. So that's all you can really do for now, lean on the people that mean most to you. And don't feel bad for it, because that is part of the reason we are here. We love you very much.