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So... it's amazing how you can know someone for so long, and then THINK you know them, but one day you find out that you truly don't.

I miss Cody. It's kinda nice to have drama that isn't revolving around his death though.
Two of his best friends were in a wreck tonight, and they were taken in life flights to a nearby hospital. I don't talk to any of that crowd anymore, I'm just following some updates on Facebook posted by their families. Both of them are in critical condition right now, and both of them are only 19. One of them is the one that called me that night to tell me what had happened to Cody. That was the one that Cody had a rocky friendship with though. The other one was Cody's actual true best friend. Neither one of them has ever been really nice to me, but I truly hope they are both okay. If Cody was here, he would be torn to pieces with worry.

Moving on though, there is nothing I can do for that.

Been a long day. Didn't sleep much last night, and then it was just crashing dominoes today. I suppose that if I was trying to see the silver lining of my shitty situation this year, I would actually be able to find something. Nothing good came from Cody's death, AT ALL. A young guy left this world for unnecessary reasons, and broke hundreds of hearts. His family, his friend, and me, his girlfriend. And my family. And even my friends.

But I suppose that the one and only good part about it is that it has made me stronger. Having to deal with something like that has helped prepare me for the rest of whatever is going to be thrown at me as I continue to progress further into life. And that is a good thing.

I feel like hell tonight though. Army makes things difficult. Makes EVERYTHING difficult, in fact. Everybody should just stay in their own countries and get over themselves and stop being so freaking ridiculous and violent. Look ! I just solved all of everybody's problems ! Bet the government loves me now.

Oh well. I have been let down by a really close friend, completely unexpectedly. So, at this point in time, I am currently back in the emotional state that I was in 4 and 1/2 months ago. It's not a good feeling, but at least it's familiar.

But whatever. I've been told that I'm a strong person, now seems to be a pretty good time to prove it. Time to start over anyway. Brand new town, new house, new people, new places. I'm looking forward to it.

I've got my family, that is all I need. And Veronica and our little Jacob. <3