#%&*%$!@#!!!!!

Can't sleep at night. Again. I don't remember the last time I've fallen asleep before 5:30am. It sucks.

I'm back where I was 5 months ago. The issue I'm currently having actually has nothing to do with Cody though, that's a first lately. So, in a way it's definitely a step up.

The issue involves me and one of my really good friends. Really, very few people know about it. I do, and the friend does, and a few family members. But anyway.
My friend helped me out a lot in dealing with the "Cody situation" and shared me how to keep caring about other things and other people. Helped out more than they will ever really know, and I appreciated it very much.

But now my friend is going through some stuff and there really isn't anything I can do to help, and I feel horrible about it. And now we aren't really talking anymore. And it sucks.

This friend has been staying up with me all night every night for... months and months now. Just talking about everything you can even think of. So, it's a little unnerving going to bed without talking to them first.

This friend is actually somewhere around 14,000 miles away right now, so I spend a lot of time worrying about them as well. It's just sucky.

And.... to top it off, the washer and drying BOTH decided to crap out tonight. Grrrrr !
Other than that, I suppose life is okay. Everything feels super off though. I'm sure it'll pass soon... I'd feel better if my friend and I actually got time to sit and talk. I'm not really sure that we are currently on the same page...

God. I can't believe how much this is bugging me. In reality, it shouldn't be bugging me this much. At all. If I was to go into details and explain everything, people would think I'm insane.

Oh well.
Bed soon I suppose.
Game in the morning. errr.