I miss him. I've been trying so hard to remember what it felt like to hug him, or touch his skin. I can't. It's been over five months since I've gotten to hug him. Or kiss him or touch him or dance with him or ride around with him. Anything and everything. It's been way too damn long. Ugh..
Not much to say really. Been a shitty day so far, and it's only 2:01. Ready to get out of this town though, that's for sure. I like it better than PC, but it's getting old quick. I leave in a little under two weeks now, so it's okay.
I've met some pretty awesome people up here. My 7 year old next door neighbor, he's adorable. And the people I work with.. they're pretty awesome too. I love them. Except for one huge douchebag, but who cares. Two more weeks and then I won't ever have to see or worry about him again, and I'm good with that.
There are a few things I'll miss when I leave here though. Gotta spend a week at home before I can move into the new place, and I'm slightly on edge about that. Too many damn memories at that place. Not just at my house, but all over town. I'm sure it'll be okay though....
I miss him. It's been a little over 5 months, yet somehow it still feels unreal sometimes..
No matter what happens or who I get close to or what I do.. I still miss him.
I'll be 18 in less than a month. He should be here for that. He was here for my 17th, and my 16th even though we were only friends then. Blah. He should have been here for graduation too though. And the birth of Brookes baby. And to see Daniel get his learners. He missed/is missing/is going to miss so much. It's still so crazy to me how someone can just be here on a Wednesday morning. Walking, talking, laughing, breathing, eating, moving, annoying the hell out of people, running their mouth, etc. And then Wednesday night, they're just gone. Forever.
I don't really know what else to say. It just seems like everytime I cry, no matter what the reason, I always find myself crying for Cody. Ugh. I miss last year.
