f_cking f_ck.

Had the most horrible dream ever last night.

It was a flashback.. back to all the times you disappeared and stuff.
But at the same time, January 12th had already happened. Not the date, but the events that occurred.
And you had a sister in the dream. And I had a kid. And I called you for the millionth time
and told you to come see the kid You never showed up, but you called and fed me some BS
excuse about how your sister had brought you back into this world and you needed to spend
the day with her because you owed her so much now. I started bawling my eyes out and then I woke up.

I hated it. I've been so sad all day because of it. I miss you Cody.
I miss all of the emotions you made me feel. I miss shopping for halloween costumes with you.
And you couldn't decide so you gave me money to buy it and went back to work.
See... back then it wasn't really wasn't a big deal. Just another random trip to walmart. but now that I think
back on it, it was a huge deal.
I spent so much time with you in 2010.
I don't even know what to say today..
I'm just sick of life right now. I miss you so much it hurts...
Really freaking bad.

Rest in Peace Cody.....
I will never love anyone like I loved you.